“In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.”
― Albert Camus
Fall has sprung. Not in the typical way I am used to. This fall has brought with it many winds of change and while it is not yet winter my heart explodes with the lessons of summer. Where do I begin?
I lost my (2) kitties of 19 years. One kitty of 17 years is left. A good friend of the family passed away. I have gained a new best friend in my mother and have fallen in love with people all over again. In the bouquet of emotions of the last several months a new fragrance wafts under my nose permeating my senses to the core. It is as if someone has handed me Christmas, Easter and my birthday on a plate. There is a joy that’s sitting out front that for everything I take in I realize how blessed I truly am. Somewhere in the loss something has been gained. No, I’m not running around in the streets like a nut, but quietly dancing around inside myself. I’m simply watching and observing this new person that has come to live inside me. It’s amazing, after the last tear has dried, and the noise of our crying stops, how we can hear a calling in the silence- the strength and the insight that calls out our name. For me, it never comes in the logical and methodical way that I seek out in my own arrogance, but instead comes in the form of solace through many unexpected venues. Once again, I am in awe.
I miss what I have lost but cherish what I have gained. My respect and compassion continues to grow for those who have endured far more than me. However, I realize there is no comparison because each of us is destined for our own experiences. No matter the depth.
I am going back to school. I am more excited about the journey than the outcome. It is something I have wanted to do for a long time. As a result, things have been a little busy! I try to visit my fellow bloggers sites but there does not seem to be enough hours in the day. I will continue to try. I wanted to thank those of you who have sent words of encouragement. I hope to continue with my blog also. It has allowed me to meet so many wonderful people from ALL over the world! I pray that each of you meet with such beauty in your heart, your life and your relationships. May we all continue to lift our veils in each and every way to see the grandest reality. See you in the “blogosphere.” :)